Asalaamu alaikum

*sigh*...since I've come back from KSA, I've been extremely miserable as if I'm an outcast in this country and I don't belong. At school I feel alienated from everyone, and my secret haven is the prayer room. Saudi was incredible an experience unlike any other. I was born and raised there and I've been back many times, but I guess this time the experience left me with a closer bond then ever, only because I had a feeling that this was the last time I'd be there, in a very long time or not at all. Because this time my reason for going was different, I wasn't as spoiled as I usually am when I go, so I got to experience KSA from a different point of view, more like from the angle of an actual saudi then a visitor. So here goes, I'll summarize my trip the whip of emotions/reactions an how I feel now. O yes if I had to compare how saudi feels like, well imagine a really big masjid, an imagine that masjid to be a home, a country for thousands of people...thats KSA

I left june 23 2008 I wasnt all that eager, because a)The flight was delayed, b)I've been there before so I assumed what I would be expecting, and c)I was in a really bad mood. So long story short, every plane we had to take to get there was delayed and/or cancelled. And no it doesnt take that many planes just to get there but because so many flights were cancelled we had to take alternate routes and even those planes were delayed so basically it was a three day journey. As you can see it started off bad already, We were extremely tired so we slept on the airport floor (literally) then continued in our journey. We got there looking like zombies, eye liner dripping down our faces, our clothes either soaked crumbled or stained. When we stepped outside it was as if a heat wave slapped our faces. Because I came with alot of people, my family including my relatives we had ALOT of luggage so we were out in the sun for a good while trying to get things together. When we arrived at the house we were soaked in sweat on top of the other disgusting things we mustve looked like. We didnt give proper salaams, which kind of appalled my grandparents and my relatives, I mean i would be angry if someone I was eagerly waiting for gave me a loose hug an walked by me...but mashallah my grandparents are darlings they understood.After the struggled greetings we dashed straight for our beds an slept like...well we slept for the hours that we missed....2 days later.

my eyes slowly drifted open and thats when it all began....to be continued

As you've guessed it, my vacation is over an we are now back in school. As miserable as I sound typing this message, it really aint so bad. But honestly I couldve sworn june was just yesterday, an I was eagerly awaiting the day I quit my job so I can leave this country, and within seconds I'm back, jobless, and have already been slapped with an assignment due next week. Well besides all that, the best part about this month is that its ramadan, and I actually like the fact that it came early in the year. Well anyways, since I just recently came back, its gonna take me awhile to get back into the habit again. I'll summarize my trip next time but until then lets sit back relax an wait for iftaar.

imaan49

So i'm vacationing now, an i havent been on this blog in a long time, pardon my spelling mistakes, the connection on this computer sucks an i dont have time to double check, so yea, i had an interesting journey here, all the flights starting from canada got delayed an it took three whole days just to get to saudi. It was torture, but the good part is all the airports gave us money to buy food, it wasnt the best food but when your hungry even water tastes soo much better. Well hmmmm the weather is pretty humid, they have wind but the wind is more like a heat wave Its like when you open an oven an alot of hot air just blows you, its exactly like that. Everyone can tell were outsiders, so buying things is difficult since they overprice us for everything. It would be easy if my arabic actually sounded like arabic but kheyr. Well when I go on a proper computer with a better connection i'll babble on some more, since thats what I do best

so peace from the middle east

imaan49

With the exclusion of my trip to saudi, another thing that has me eagerly awaiting is the upcoming Twilight movie, made from the book Twilight by author Stephenie Meyers. This book was one of my faves, and although the plot line seems kind of cheesy when I explain it to people it is actually pretty good. One thing that had me shell shock is the choice of actors they had chosen for the movie. With the book "the kite runner" all the actors and the setting looked exactly how I imagined it to look like, except for assef the bad guy in the book. However with the movie Twilight, the main character Bella does not look like Bella to me. I dont know if this is something to complain about, but I already had my eyes open for that girl in that limony snickets movie to play Bella, because she was the perfect isabella swan in my eyes. Seriously do these people not read the books, this is just utterly disturbing, and I do not want to go to saudi with a sour mood, but movie writers if your reading this, next time.....please ask the fans for advice because it is us you want to please in the end.


thank you

imaan49

so i'm just blogging now for the sake of blogging. I've been away for awhile now because...(drum rolls) IM GOING TO SAUDI WOOHOOO!!!. So my flight leaves june 23 an I'll be gone for two months, my whole family and I'll be relaxing with the rest of dem saudi's sippin on that zam zam. I've been so busy just preparing, going shopping for gifts yada yada and just working my butt off. I'm so exhausted because there are so many things left to be done and I'm taking my precious time, as if i have time on my hands......which I don't, so don't let me fool you all. But all this stress and exhaustion will be worth it in the end especially when I do umrah with the fam...not that I am bragging and if it sounds like I'm bragging then my bad but who would be able to stop themselves from gabbing on about this.....right?

Well as much as I'm looking forward to the trip, I'm still feeling uneasy because I hate the feeling of having to "miss". I'll miss my friends, family, and especially my best friends wedding, which till now I cannot believe she set it while I'll be away. Saudi is an experience worth taking, the last time I went I felt the sense of belonging almost immediately, an the best thing about this trip now is that I'll be ready for whatever comes my way. I wasnt prepared for alot of things the last time, and I must admit the first week was just horrible, but the simplicity just took my breath away (thats when I got used to it of course). I cannot control my patience, and I'm so eager to see my grandparents again, and do umrah with all of us together just like old times. I have to remind myself that I'm only gonna sleep 6 hours everyday, I cannot waste my time there to sleep so hopefully that works out. So for now the blogging, on my part atleast, has ceased for just awhile, but I'll be back inshallah with full blown force ready to talk about the experience. I'll write when I'm there ya'll...

imaan49

i'm loving how there are so many more girls practising now, masha Allah it feels like another world but its still Toronto. more and more people are taking the hijab seriously and are wearing abaya's, fully long hijabs, and even socks with flats masha Allah. but what i cannot seem to understand are the girls that were orginally always practising, but don't follow the rules that they are knowingly breaking. i dont want to be judgemental don't get me wrong, but its so sad to see girls who were always wearing the hijab and are known to be good girls and "hijabi's" here in the material world, but are wearing skirts that are extremely tight or are showing their figure, or tops/shirts that show their figure and everything else, and even listen to music. its so contradicting if u really sit and think about it. i mean if there was anyone looking at the situation from an outside view they would say "do it right or Don't do it at all!" i myself sometimes fall into that trap when i do go out so i can understand it is tempting sometimes to wear that new skirt that fits just right or that new top that was on sale and u just had to get. and its so sad how we look at the kaafirs and shake our heads when we see them sporting short shorts or the tightest jeans that look painted on. but to be honest, i see no difference, our skirts are just as tight! we have to remember we are all an example regardless if we're by ourselves or in a group, the way we conduct our selves including the way we dress speaks much louder than words. ..but we gotta always remember our purpose in this world, and its not to please others, its to please Allah Subhana Wa Taa'laa and follow what has been brought down. so i guess this post was more of a heads up n a likkle reminder that we are the best of the Ummah but we have to show it as well.


Signing off, its sweet...Bittersweet007